Lament

This is how the scene plays out: the host welcomes the guest and begins making excuses for their appearance, explaining the messy room, offering reasons (justification) for decor choices, etc.

I have often played the part of the host, overly concerned with the opinion of others. Even as I write this I struggle with worrying about what a reader will think of me. So, I spend an inordinate amount of time trying to find just the right words, stringing them in just the right phrases, hoping nobody misunderstands and thinks badly of me. Of course, that's a "catch 22" because while one wants to be understood, understanding doesn't guarantee a favorable opinion.

This post is an exercise in opening the door to me, without excuse or justification; without attempts to influence opinion. After all, your opinion is yours.

Last year it was suggested that my sister, Susan, and I put together an art quilt exhibit to be displayed at the Greenbean Coffeehouse in Greenwood, WA. (Our pieces were up during the month of May.)

The timing couldn't have been better. Depression was taking hold of me and it was very helpful to have a goal to work towards. I was able to complete about ten pieces. Most of them were just for fun but three ended up coming together as a triptych, loaded with meaning and symbolism. I was even inspired to name them; something which I rarely do.

Let me share with you the briefest glimpse of:

Lament

A passionate expression of grief, often in music, poetry, or song form.

Part 1

Subito

Suddenly, at once

The camel's back was broken; the scales tipped; the saturation point was reached.
Pick your idiom.
While these all suggest accumulation, progression or gradation, there's still that moment,
 when it feels like everything changes. 

In the blink of an eye. 

Suddenly.

Part 2

Dissonance

A tension or clash resulting from the combination of two disharmonious or unsuitable elements.

Trying to figure out how to accept the clash
of grief against hope, sorrow next to joy, fear while trusting.
The list could go on and on.

Part 3

Cadence

A harmonic progression that suggests a conclusion, if only a temporary one.

Finding a new normal.
Only a vestige remains of the old normal. Collecting the fragments into a new arrangement, attempting to create a sense of order out of chaos.

At least, for now.

So much more could be said or explained. Maybe in a future post.